Hillary has never publicly spoken about the liaison but her thoughts are laid out in diaries written by Diane Blair, a University of Arkansas political science professor who died in 2000, ABC News reported
The right wing publication, Washington Free Beacon
was the first to report on the diaries, Tuesday.
The Beacon said the diaries, along with other correspondence, covers the years from the mid-1970's and was donated by Diane Blair’s husband Jim to the University of Arkansas upon her death. The contents were closed to the public until 2010 and have not been previously reported on, the Beacon said.
The diaries’ contents are explosive because they reveal Hillary’s inner thoughts about the scandal that saw her husband impeached
by the House but acquitted by the Senate.
The diaries say that Hillary blamed the affair on the pressures of the job as president, the loss of Bill’s mother and father and her own inability to be at his side when he needed her.
“She thinks she was not smart enough, not sensitive enough, not free enough of her own concerns and struggles to realize the price he was paying,” Blair writes. “And, HRC (Hillary Rodham Clinton) insists, no matter what people say, it was gross inappropriate behavior but it was consensual (and was not a power relationship) and was not sex within any real meaning (standup, liedown, oral, etc.) of the term.”
Many wondered why Hillary stayed with Bill, and Blair addresses that, too.
“He has been her best friend for 25 years, her husband for 23 years, (they are) connected in every way imaginable,” she writes. “She feels strongly about him and family and Chelsea and marriage and she’s got to try to work it through.”
So, what are we to make of the contents of the diaries?
Is it the “Archive of ‘closest friend’ paints portrait of ruthless First Lady,” as stated by the Washington Free Beacon?
Or is Hillary a strong woman who realized the work her husband was doing as president was important and that she had failed to come to his side in times of trouble, as the writing suggests?
Of course the right wing will try to spin the diaries in a way that puts Hillary in the worse possible light.
But what shines through is that a devoted wife and mother put the affair in perspective, swallowed any bile and did so for because she believed it was best for the welfare of her family and her country.