About Personal Suffering and the Good It Brings and Growing Up!

Is Suffering Really Good or Just Bad? Should We Want to Suffer? Or Should We Avoid it?

ABOUT PERSONAL SUFFERING AND THE GOOD IT BRINGS! People kept telling me here about suffering and how I hadn't yet, and needed to, and they were all being so sure to let me know what else was lacking for me, and I was getting all critiqued and judged; so I began to share my stories of life and childhood, and other experiences with them... For I think that they should have some kind foundation of knowledge about my personal life and experiences so that they will all have something to work with, material-wise, when trying to repair whatever they all think that I need forceably put into order in my thinking and life to cause me to be almost as perfect as they all are! GROWING UP! If people grow up in the Church and their hair is already even greying, shouldn't they already be grown up in the Lord and mature in the things of God? I know people with crippling illnesses and they keep saying that they are suffering from God so they will grow spiritually and even learn how very much He loves them! And when I had my heart attack, am still recovering and seeking not to die so that I can continue to live and do some more things with my life, and my goals are noble and good (Isaiah speaks of the good man and his noble pursuits... as if that is a really good thing!). But people are telling me not to seek or to expect healing, or to recover (and the only other option is dying), so that I can learn whatever lesson God is trying to teach me in killing me with this progressive heart failure illness! One thing I did notice was that no one telling me that I was suffering for the Lord in my heart illness offered me any aid or care when I was not able to even care for my personal needs due to the weakness of the illness, accept to remind me not to get well so that I could learn some great spiritual truths and how very much God loves me... while I was alone and could not even fend for myself? That does not seem right? But my concern is that when I am too weak and too ill I do not even have the strength to read my Bible or to highlight key verses with my Bible markers, or to make notes in the page boarders when I learn interesting things while reading my Bible! Wouldn't a person do better reading their Bible and praying and seeking the face of God, than being too ill and so weak that they cannot function well enough to do any of those things? Wouldn't reading God's Word and praying help people to learn and to grow in the Lord and in His holy knowledge and glorious insights better than being so ill than one does not even know what end is up and where they are and who they are? I know a woman whose back went out and her little children did not get cared for or fed, and she said that God made her back painfully go out on purpose to teach her how very much He loved her! But didn't God love her children too? The little ones that needed their mummy to bathe them, feed them and otherwise care for them? Hi, I am God! And I love you so much that I am going to painfully break your back or give you cancer or maybe even a heart attack so that you will know how much you mean to Me, and how much I love you! Or maybe I will do all three to you so that you will positively know how much I truly love you! But I think that God has called us all to follow His Son Jesus, and that any suffering is either persecution for being a Jesus follower, or else normal illnesses that happen to everyone and other things that happen because there is a devil and a lot of mangy demons on the loose trying to muck up everything good? Ah? Could that be it? I am a constant Bible reader, and that is what I think is mostly going on, and that we are to pray for and believe for healing and other answered prayers just like Jesus told us to do over and over again and over again, and even if doing so does contradict some of the seemingly popular thinking in some of the pews of some of our religious institutions and churches aye? Food for thought!